What Love Means To Me
My poetry is directed to diffent kinds of poeple. Some will understand one kind of poem and not the other. So I have 3 kinds and hopefully you can understand one of them. If you like them and want to read more email me. The 1st: WHERE DO I TURN. 2nd: WHAT LOVE MEANS TO ME.& 3rd: BITCHES.

Where Do I Turn

The sun rises
then it goes down
Throuhout the whole day
I walk around with a frown

Is the world against me
why am I depressed
My heart truely hurts
it's burning a hole through my chest

I know I shouldn't think it
but I just want to die
I feel so alone
that's why I always cry

This can't be the way
that all my days will end
But it seems like my fate
I think I need a friend

So I turn to the Lord
our savior Jesus Christ
If anyone can do it
He can make a change in my life

I'm afraid to go to church
and confess all my sins
But it's the only way
it's there I will find true friends

This is my last chance
to find a peace of mind
I say the sinners prayer
and I find-out in due time

Lifes alot easyer
I choose Jesus first
I have something to live for
and won't be found for the worst

What Love Means to Me

I have never been in love
the way I'm in now
What a difference you have made in my life
a true love I know I found

A love that's so sweet
tender and qwit unique
So good and so right
I found the love of my life

Loven you has given me something new
a mended heart that's just for you
I never felt nor ever dreamed
to find a love with beauty that gleams

Hand in hand
arm and arm
I never knew a touch
could mean so much

It's was Gods known plan
for us to be hand in hand
I feel something real
there's no question how I feel

Hold me in your arms
and show me you care
And I will hold you in my arms
and forever be there

Love comes and love goes
people say but they don't know
If you give it time to last
you'll forget about your past

Let them glare
and let them stare
For what we have
is something rare

Let them learn
from me and you
And they will know
I love you.

For the last poem you have to email me to get it. Cause I don't any young eyes to read it. Thanks for your interst.

Eric Johnson
its63unique@yahoo.com - Monday, February 26, 2001 at 20:16:35 (EST)

What Is Life...
What is life
is it the chaos, I struggle with every day

What is life
is it the determination, going day in, day out, trying to get paid

What is life

knowing how well I do, someone will always be there to criticize me


What is life
having the thought in my mind, when is this all going to be over?, when am i going to be able to break free


What is life
the urge to find love, real love, divine love

What is life
going through heartbreaks and heartaches, finding what love is really made of

What is life
becoming nothing, just thinking about what could've been

What is life
trying hard to find the person deep within

What is life
meeting people who will leave beautiful footprints in your life

What is life
knowing that any man who walks by you, could be "Mr. Right"

For all I know life is,is what it has become to me.
It has become a fight, a fight for victory.

A day by day struggle, which I know I can overcome.
But keeps me wondering, what will happen when life is done.

Chivone Jenkins
Grade 8
iilricana@aol.com - Saturday, February 24, 2001 at 22:05:47 (EST)

I want to apologize before I write this in case I offend anyone. I've lived on the streets most my life and express myself in that fashion.My spelling may not be the best either so please bare with me. From the heart.

Crack Bitch don't care
she on the jones,

Suck your dick for a blast
be on your toes,

Crack bitch don't care
kids home hungry,

No heat for sleep five
kids weep,

Crack bitch jumping from
jon to jon,

Will suck her own sisters pussy
that's just how it goes,

Crack bitch don't care the glass dick
is callin,

Get on the street quick,
You crack whore bitch

Drove into the projects to cop a bag,

Found my savior in the Dynasty bought in a bag,

Selling dope moving cokewhat a life for me,

I can't feel a thing i'm numb you see,

Abused and tortured and left on a corner to trick,

The cold air is coming i'm going to be sick,

Exposed every day as I walk the streets,

Looking for a hand out or a jon to meet,

drugs are my life a paradox for certain,

I know in the end it will be my final curtain,

fuckin hell, Drugs are swell,

Kicked in the head, Left for dead,

Do a blast, Stab a vein

stumble out, I start to shout,

Now i'm numb, I want to cum,

Where is that crack whore,

I saw her there,

Fuck it she'll do,

On her knees to,

We both play in this silly love game,

Dope for sex,

Sex for dope,

Some day lord ,

Help me cope,

Heavy Rays, Light Rays,

Drugs all around,

Crack dealer, prostitute I love this town,

Kid's abandoned running the street's,

Can't be more than eight or ten,

Project's affordable housing they say,

Lock down, a prison old person in a bad way,

15 doing time, caught a dime,Won't get till i'm twenty

five,

Institutionalized I will be for life,

Time to end this fucking pain,

Get a 9 go out with a bang,

Beeper buzz, Cell on ring,

Deal goes down I got the thing,

You need and want to live,

Fuck with me get a shiv,

Streets are cold, Corner is bare,

This is the life I fucking swear,

Cop's just passed doing there thing,

Slowly passing, harrasing

What a life I fuckin swear,

No time to waste, a clip of dimes goes in a second,

Made my rent money, Buy some food,

Life is hard in my neighborhood,

Bullets flying, People dieing,

Stick up kid's, Mac 10 in your face,

Grab your 9 and embrace,

Your fate is come, You ain't no dumb dumb,

Pull the trigger quick as hell,

Before that mother ring's your bell,

20 spot gotta cop,

Bag a dope, no hope,

Heard a bang, gun went off,

Notha Brotha dead, not me yet,

Still kickin, chillin

Part of the problem, not the solution,

Dope dealer, Crack whore,

Gotta stop, want more,

No rest, till i'm dead,

Fuck with me bullet in your head,

I ain't sayin it's da life,

All this pain and strife,

I ain't sayin it's for me,

I'll get out you wait and see,

I'm just here because i'm comfortable,

Don't know what's on the other side,

Seem's like there's a whole lot to hide,

Someone like me over there,

uh uh , no way, they say,

Mercades, Jag, Porch, Ferrari to,

I'll buy that shit just to keep up with you,

But in the end I know,

It ain't about the gold,

If you got one friend,

Then this trip was worth it,

Valuable as materials may be,

There's no price on a friend you see,

And that's the skinny,

So don't come out your neck sideways with me,

Because i'm alot of street, And you think that is mean,

In jail out on bail, It's my life so chill with regret's,

We'll all be equal upon our death's,


EQUALITY IN THE END, MY BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER!!!

kenneth riviere
- Saturday, February 24, 2001 at 18:17:46 (EST)

Unfinished
I. I. I. I.
It's always "I" when it comes to me.
Why can't life be the way I want it to be?
Darkness surrounds me.
I want to die.
Is anything right in this life?
I can't see, the light's too bright.
Engulfed in light, I try to die.
And now, now, now.
I hate the ones I love.
And love the ones I'm hating.
Is there a way I can stop this beating?!
And now my face turns red.
My heart stops beating.
The tears start flowing.
He's on.
I don't want to hurt him.
I love him.
I tried to get over him.
It's hard to breathe now,
He's gone.
I jump at every sound.
I need sleep.
I need sleep.
Diverging my eyes, I try to see.
Why?
I can't.
Why can't we still be friends?
It's all my fault, everything is.

Amber Kennedy
Grade 8
PinkAndRedChi@aol.com - Friday, February 23, 2001 at 23:59:54 (EST)

Josh-
I want.
I'll do something extraordinary.
Am I wanting you?
I don't know how to feel.
What to think.
Wanting more out of nothing, I lay my horny body down to the floor.
"Fail" comes upon me.
Am I alright?
Is he okay with his new bitch?
I need to stop thinking about him.
I want it.
Will you be my savior?
Of course not, probably.
My hypocritical self needs nothing but has everything.
Or is it the other way around?
I gaze out at the snow.
I miss him.
Do I need him?
I can do better, but so can he.
I hate it.
Do I need you?
I'm not sure what I need.
It's hard to get through to some people.
I want to die.
I thought some people might understand.
I want him to need me.
And I think the same for you.
I pick at the chocolate under my thumbnail,
And just think...
Nobody loves me.
Under the cloud again.
This world isn't right.
Or is it just me?
"I love you."
Those words are priceless coming from the ones that love you.
But they're the first signs of hatred coming from the ones you love.
I can never get myself into a trap like that again.
I'm so depressed.
I want to make him worry.
Fail.
I have a life, but...
When the music goes off, you'll hear everything, yet nothing.
'Cause all of their conversations are so insignificant.
So me.
I don't know.

Amber Kennedy
Grade 8
PinkAndRedChi@aol.com - Friday, February 23, 2001 at 23:53:13 (EST)

If I'm not there
With each step I took I thought of you. And when I looked at the stars I remembered us. And Each and Every night when I went to sleep I drempt of our precious memories. And I was wishing and hoping for you my dear And For the day when I would see your sweet face again. But the wishing and hoping has faded and seems like a waste of my time. My soul has drowned and my body has disappeared into the moonlight which I once looked at with you be my side. I'm living in my own hell now but hey hell is warmer than paradise anyway.

Jan
Grade 9
Janalee86@aol.com - Friday, February 23, 2001 at 17:11:19 (EST)

Evil
Evil is at hand and your face is turning bland. I shall show you fear then i shall smear all the blood upon your face makes it look like you've been sprayed with mase. The life that will soon leave you was taken by a knife. A car drives past the memories that will never last.

Tony Gushanas
Grade 07
teentg@hotmail.com - Friday, February 23, 2001 at 09:50:03 (EST)

Love
A dove upon the fallen snow,
shows your love what you know,
what you know is what you are,
a distant memory that goes very far

Tony Gushanas
Grade 07
teentg@hotmail.com - Friday, February 23, 2001 at 09:45:38 (EST)

"Friends"
Friends are friends,
Sweet as can be,
Friends are just like,
You and me,
I am a friend,
You are one to,
That means this friendship,
Is totally true,
So, when I think of a friend,
I think of who,
It clicks in my mind,
And I think of you,
I think of you,
Again and again,
I think of you,
As a true friend.

Joshua Dione Jolivette (*Lil-Star*)
Grade 11
lilstar4sho@aol.com - Thursday, February 22, 2001 at 21:26:24 (EST)

"There Is A Friend"
I know you might feel sad,
Even a little down,
But remember,
You have real good friends,
That always are around,
All you have to do,
Is look up and you will see,
Friends that will pick you up,
For all eternity,
Remember God Listens

Joshua Dione Jolivette
Grade 11
Lilstar4sho@aol.com - Thursday, February 22, 2001 at 21:17:45 (EST)

Vilotes are blue
roses are red
I'm cuter than you!

Elizabeth
Grade 7
elizabethms405@aol.com - Thursday, February 22, 2001 at 01:11:08 (EST)

Sunny Snow Covered Day

birds singing like a quertette of fine,
musicians the wind is soothing like a,
massage the snow covers the ground like a,
soft white blanket tracks of people and,
animals here and there like towns on a map,
whinding and curving like a road so many tracks,
it's like a road map I sit and relax,
no worries time passes slowly this is a sunny snow covered, day........................

Klas Peterzen
- Tuesday, February 20, 2001 at 16:43:39 (EST)

Shame
What a world we were given,
and thrown it all away.
With the lives we've been living,
we've made its beauty fade.

With our barbaric ways,
we've eliminated harmony.
Our one and only place,
is now filled with disparity.

Now as you may inquire,
who here is to blame?
When all that's left is fire,
we all should feel shame.

Mike
Grade 6
- Saturday, February 17, 2001 at 22:44:34 (EST)

"The Difference"
I am injustice,
I dress in a coat of colors and mixed feelings,
My siblings are the anger of my workers and the fear of my victims,
I feed on cruel acts and crushed souls,
I vacation in dark and cold hearts,
My vocation is to seperate those who differ in the slightest,
I desire for happiness and fairness to be diminished,
For I am the difference between you and me.

Amber
Grade 7
Amber96217@aol.com - Thursday, February 15, 2001 at 20:12:44 (EST)

Broken
I always believed you loved me
I always believed you cared
I guess my heart's in sorrow
By a small little tear
You meant the world to me
Yet always letting me down
I tried to understand
But my feeling didn't count
Sometimes I feel like laughing
Sometimes I shed so many tears
I wish I knew the answer
Or why you didn't care
I loved you more then words could say
But to you it was all a game
so I'll never forget those heartaches
And that never ending pain

Elena
TknBySebe@aol.com - Thursday, February 15, 2001 at 02:21:29 (EST)

Black and White
Why is it so dark?
Why am i so dark?
I've fallen from my loftly aspirations-
I've become so, afraid
Everything is black and white-
mostly black no days,
And ive lost my way
without pretty colors to guide me,
There is no brilliant star
only the blackest hole
that lingers where my heart once was
I dont feel anymore,
And i use to laugh at everything
For life has been trivilized
And i cant bring myself to call.

_____

I need to talk to you...
You need to get ahold...

Kinnie Elliott
Grade 8
Dogholla@cjnetworks.com - Wednesday, February 14, 2001 at 21:36:47 (EST)

YOU
Her eyes, are like crystal blue streams,
Her hair, is a golden color, only seen in my dreams,
Her skin, is as soft and smooth as silk,
and looks as creamy as fresh, cold milk.
When I look at her,
and hear her voice,
my heart beats faster,
it has no choice.
My stomach flutters endlessly,
I only wish,
that she could see,
how much her love,
means to me.

BOBBY
Grade 7
bOBERT144@HOTMAIL.COM - Tuesday, February 13, 2001 at 21:49:57 (EST)

IF ONLY
If only
If only you could see the way I love you
If only you could under stand the way my heart fills when I am round you
If only you could see how beautiful you are to me
your beautiful crystal blue eyes
your stunning Golden hair
your smooth skin at the end of my finger tips
when I hear your voice my heart stops
as I turn to look at you my heart starts beating
faster and faster
You’re every word stunning me
I just stand there looking at you
when you leave I become sad
sadder and sadder as you become far away
but why
why don't I stop you and have the courage to say I love you
am I scared
that you will just hate me
do I think my friends will be jealous
and try to take you from me
Why can't I
why can't I say I love you
time after time I talk to you
but never say I love you
this should not be this way
as you slowly leave I finally gain the courage to say I love you
as you walk away you turn around and say I love you too

Bobby
Grade 7
BOBBERT144@HOTMAIL.COM - Tuesday, February 13, 2001 at 21:42:49 (EST)

Untitled
On his back, he stares through
The ceiling of his bedroom
Next to him, a pretty girl sleeps
Thoughts become just like clouds
Drifting in; drifting out
Only now one thought he takes and keeps

He can't stop the sequence.
He has no more defense.
Only one is way too much
Grasping for his freedom,
Instead, he finds himself numb
One thousand is never enough.

Heart is beating faster
Brain completely plastered
Fun without laughter
He rises to obey his master

Taking in the enemy
That darkens all his memory
Next to him, the pretty girl stirs
Insanity is God now
And justifying somehow
It takes his life in bed with her

She opens her eyes..
Watches as he dies..
As she wonders who he is...
Panicking with fear..
How did she get here?..
Problem solved with one last fix......

Kendall Silva
AngelK761@aol.com - Tuesday, February 13, 2001 at 19:57:42 (EST)

Reason
Reality sinks in
There is none
We search for a reason
Then we're gone

Questioning what the
Child can't see
Guardian's job:
To ask for peace

Born with eyes
That are open wide
But quickly our mind
Begins to hide

Panic-stricken faces
Searching unrealistic places
For a meaning..for a reason
For our life - existant spaces

Stop this searching for there is
No knowledge hidden here
You think you want a purpose
But the issue is your fear

A reason to live and a
Reason to die
Just live your life ignorant,
I will live mine.

Kendall Silva
AngelK761@aol.com - Tuesday, February 13, 2001 at 19:32:43 (EST)

Shame

What a world we were given,
and thrown it all away.
With the lives we've been living,
we've made its beauty fade.

With our barbaric ways,
we've eliminated harmony.
Our one and only place,
is now filled with disparity.

Now as you may inquire,
who here is to blame?
When all that's left is fire,
we all should feel shame.

Mike
Grade 6
- Sunday, February 11, 2001 at 19:02:56 (EST)

A winters death
He stands there
frozen, icey blue,
died of a winters death
with his soul so true,
in the colorful aurora
the frigid peak,
stands so bold
an' seems to speak,
it speaks of a man
traveling the land,
trying to find his love
an' to have her hand,
says he traveled to long
and his life was worn,
an' went to the snowy coves
and there he was torn,
torn from both life and love
died a winters death,
as he stood there freezing
he spoke with his last breath,
"my life has come to an end
here in this frozen tundra,
but maybe in death
i'll dream of my beatiful Alundra,"
the frigid peaks has spoken
an' the man he is gone,
an' with this story told
myself, I am done!!!

Thomas J. Snelling
Grade 12
echochamber2@aol.com - Thursday, February 08, 2001 at 15:31:05 (EST)

The Darkness of Dusk
As I slept outside last night
I felt the cold wind's chill.
I shuddered as it haunted me
Atop the highest hill.

Deep behind the mountains
I saw the gold sun hide.
The darkness of dusk soon surrounded me
Like an evil ocean's tide.

Lauren McGough
Grade 5
lalaloo78@aol.com - Wednesday, February 07, 2001 at 17:43:04 (EST)

Real Friends
Real friends are reliable
They’re also dependable
Real friends never turn their backs
on you when you need them
They’ll never hurt you either
Real friends stick with you through
thick and thin
They’re sometimes closer to you
than you are with your ken
Real friends help you through your
rough times no matter what it is
They’ll never tell your personal business
to other little kids
Real friends don’t have to be human,
they can be anything you like
They can be animals, imaginary, or
even a big red kite
This is the last thing I’m going to say and
I’m not going to repeat myself again
Real friends, no matter what they are, will
stick with you until the very end

By: Brenda D. Freeman

Brenda D. Freeman
Grade 9
mujerdeldios@usa.net - Sunday, February 04, 2001 at 19:08:28 (EST)

My Best Friend
I just can’t believe that you’re gone
But, I know I will always love you so
You were and still are everything to me
And that is why I’ll never let you go

You were like a mother to me
That’s why I always thought you were so heavenly
I wish that I could be with you like you were with me
But, only time can tell when that’ll be

I still just can’t believe that you’re gone
Now I feel as if I can’t go on
So, until the time comes that we meet again
I just want to say that you’ll always be my best friend

-In Remembrance of Grandma
Helen Freeman
By: Brenda D. Freeman

Brenda D. Freeman
Grade 9
mujerdeldios@usa.net - Sunday, February 04, 2001 at 19:04:24 (EST)

Her last moment
On the last day of school in May 2000,
She found she had cancer,
She lived thuorgh the summer,
But life diden't last,
On the morning of July 31, 2000,
The principul called a meeting,
To tell of her last moment.

deadacated to
Mrs. Danials
To many great
yaers at
greenwood middle

Katherine
Grade 6
Mystic1225@hotmail.com - Wednesday, January 31, 2001 at 16:34:57 (EST)

WHEN I GROW UP

WHEN I GROW UP I WONDER IF PEOPLE WILL BE MORE AFRAID TO CRY THAN TO DIE.
WHEN I GROW UP AND HAD NOTHING TO DO, AND ME AND MY SON BUILT A CONOE THE WATER THAT USED TO BE BLUE WOULD BE SO POLLUTED IT WOULD GIVE US THE FLU.
WILL I HAVE TO BE LIKE YOU MAKING MONEY LIKE YOU EVERY THING FOR WHAT I DO?
WHEN I GROW UP WILL THE EXISTANCE OF DOLPHINS AND WHALES BEGINING WITH ONCE UPON A TIME ENDING WITH WHERE DO WE FAIL.

ASHLEY WALLACE
Grade 7
djwpop@hotmail.com - Tuesday, January 30, 2001 at 14:39:31 (EST)

I Love You

Ever notice when were apart?
the love can never start
Ever notice when you need im there?
its cause im someone who does care
Ever get the felling you love someone that you cant sleep?
sometimes i cant even say peep
Ever notice that you make my day?
without you i would be gray
Ever notice that your so sweet?
im really glad we did meet
Ever notice how we are ment for each other?
i think i found my lover
Ever notice during the day you need a kiss?
i do and sure do have someone to miss
At this time i like to say
I Love You each and every day!

mike
Grade 9
- Monday, January 29, 2001 at 20:53:15 (EST)

Revenge
There is one thing
That I would like to know.
Why did you say forever
Just to turn around and let me go?

And one other thing;
Why didn’t you say goodbye?
Because you didn’t even stutter
When you walked over to say ‘hi’.

So why even start
When you knew it wouldn’t last?
You were just having fun.
Why didn’t you tell me that?

You even said you loved me.
God, what a lie that was!
And when I said I didn’t do those things,
You went and found someone that does.

Do you know how used I felt?
Love, that was a joke!
You just wanted to get some action.
No matter how many hearts you broke.

So now you left, and didn’t look back.
Are you proud of what you’ve done?
Do you think I’d let you get away?
Honey, it’s just begun!

This is not ever going to happen again,
I’ll make sure of that.
But I’m not going to tell you how, when, or where.
All I’m saying is watch your back!

Kala
Grade 9th
SimplyUnique155@aol.com - Monday, January 29, 2001 at 18:12:10 (EST)

Death
The cruelest end;
The final blow
Whose barriers cannot bend.
But do not say I cannot go; for one day you will know.

Some say that they know when and how
they’ll die, and what they’ll do to say good-bye
And they’ll just stop and take a bow.
These are they ones that don’t know when they’ll die.

Who knows what comes to pass.
After death, our final day.
After our foot push up the grass.
Only God, I say

For life is like a falling leaf;
Until the end, he final grief.

Thomas
Grade 8
faceinthecrwd@aol.com - Sunday, January 28, 2001 at 17:30:45 (EST)

Friendship
Friendship....
What a powerful word,
but something that fills you with joy,
once this powerful word is heard.

What does friendship mean to you?
does it mean someone who lifts you up,
when you are feeling a little blue?

Or does it mean,
watching the sun rise in the early morn,
after one of your vigouras fights,
has your heart torn.

I dont know what It means to you,
ALl I know is that this word,
could make all of your dreams come true.

Without friends...You wouldnt be where you are today,
I will stick with you my friend...
So come what may.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:30:44 (EST)

~*untitled*~
Falling down...down,
a dark dark hole,
the throbbing of my heart,
the jumping of my soul.
is this the end?
I ask myself
will this powerful force ever give in?
Getting closer..closer...
to the ground
My heart throbbing,
I cant make a sound...
As I get closer...just one little look...
I scream and I yell,
As I am thrown off the hook....
As I lay on the ground...
looking at the past times in my life....
I relize now, it wasnt all strife..
I have lived a good life,
and had a lot of friends...
but now its time,
for that good life to end.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:28:49 (EST)

Mommy. and daddy
Sometimes I know the words to say,
give thanks for all you have done,
but then those words fly up and down,
as quickly as they come.

How could i even thank you enough,
you are the one who makes me whole,
how could I possibly thank you enough,
you are the forming of my soul.

You are the one who saw me off to bed,
and soothed my fears,
of the next day, that I dread.
And help hide my ongoing tears

You are the one who saw me off at school
and spent sad days alone,
but you always managed to form a smile,
as soon as I got home.

The one who makes such sacrifices
and always puts me first,
who lets me test my broken wings
inspite of how it hurts

Who paints on the world a rainbow,
when all i see is broken dreams,
who can explain somthing so clearly,
when it is not what it seems.

Are there really any words for us?
i find this question tough...
anything I want to say or do
just dosent seem to be enough.

What way is their to thank you,
for your heart your sweat your tears,
for the million things you have done for me
in oh so many years.

For changing with me as I changed,
for excepting all my flaws,
not for loving me cause you have to,
but for loving me just because.

For listening to my problems,
the ones I couldnt solve,
for lifting me up to my feet,
if ever I had to fall.

For excepting me as i person,
and not because you had to,
for putting up with my attitude...
when you could have said you were through.

For never giving up on me
when your wits had reached their end,
for always being proud of me,
for being my best friend.

Thank you for the gifts you gave
for everything you do,
but thank you mommy and daddy most of all,
for treating me like you do.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:27:08 (EST)

Your not Perfect
As you sit in your house,
on your perfect little chair,
and complain cause you are bored,
and that no one is there.
Think about the people,
who arent as lucky as you,
Think about the people
who are lookin right through.
Why are you so selfish,
that you still fail to see,
that there is people that are worse off than you,
and one of them is me.
You make me sick as I look,
at what you are made of,
you get everything you want,
including the love...
You are who you are,
because what your parents do..
and I dont understand that..
it has nothing to do with you,
so what is ur problem,
get over your self,
take all your pride out,
and put it on the shelf.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:25:06 (EST)

I wish...
I wish I wouldnt have let you go,
You know that I loved you so.
I loved you with all my heart and mind,
together we could turn back the hand of time.
You dont understand how much you mean to me,
At the time, i'll admit, i wanted to be free.
But now I miss your touch upon my face,
As your soothing words I cant embrace.
I am thinking of you all the time,
it is like you control my heart and mind.
I feel the pain,
up to this day..
the pain that I let you slip away.
I guess this is the price I pay,
The price of pain...that hurts me in so many ways.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:23:34 (EST)

Confused Teenager
The pressure is building,
its getting to my head,
The moment has come,
that I have most dread.
I cant say a word,
as I listen to him talk,
I turn and snicker,
as his words I mock.
As the hand puts pressure,
upon my face,
I look him in the eye,
the terrible thoughts I cant erase.
He screams and he yells,
at the top of his lungs
looking me in the eye,
upon my mistakes he dwells.
I cry and I cry,
for what I have done is wrong,
For I have to have faith,
I have to be strong.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:22:06 (EST)

I have learned
I have learned that people arent always what they seem,
I have learned that infamous thoughts, could only be a dream.
I have learned that relashonships dont always work out,
I have learned that at some point, everyone will scream and shout.
I have learned that you have to forgive to be forgiven,
I have learned to be happy with what you are given.
I have learned that everyone makes mistakes,
I have learned that life isnt a piece-of-cake,
I have learned that life will hurt you time after time,
I have learned that true beauty lies within the heart and mind.
I have learned that many times you will be rejected,
I have learned that off other people, your life is reflected.
I have learned that everyone is the same in a way,
I have learned that people are made fun of, day after day.
I have learned that I can make a difference today,
I have learned I cant say everything I want to say.
I have learned that sometimes you just have to move on in life,
I have learned that if you don't you will recieve in greif and strife.
I have learned that true friends will be friends to the end,
I have learned that there is always someone with a hand to lend.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:20:48 (EST)

Ashley
I didnt always underestimate,
the things you did for me,
and I didnt always turn off the light,
so you could no longer see.
I didnt always say,
that I didnt like you anymore,
even when I did say it,
I probably liked you more than before.
I wasnt always such a brat to you,
I didnt always let it be known,
that I wanted us to be through,
I didnt always forgive the mistakes you had made,
Because I knew in the end a precious price would be paid.
I didnt always see the things you had taught,
I didnt always start the fights, all those times that we faught.
I didnt always see that you meant so much to me,
A lot of times I thought, i just wanted to be free.
But now as you are getting ready,
to walk out the door,
I just wanted to do something for you,
something once more.
I really will miss you,
once you leave,
Even though you will only be six miles away,
I figured you would always be close,
and I figured you intended to keep it that way.
Just make sure that this man,
is really the right one for you,
and make sure that you love him,
as much as you think you do.
I dont want you to get hurt,
and come crawling back here,
I just want you to be happy,
you know this my dear?
And again I am sorry,
for all the horrible things I have said,
at times I was as worthless,
as a pencil without led.
You may say that living with me,
was the most miserable years of your life,
and you may say that all I gave you was grief and strife,
but deep down I know that you know,
you couldnt be the same person you are,
if it wasnt for your shining star,
and I also know,
that you wouldnt have been able to see,
how people acually act,
if it wasnt for me.
So just make sure that you really want to do this,
I remember all those times that we had,
when we were growing up together,
you were always SO LITTLE!
as light as a feather,
and I remember the time,
when you totalled your car
I was there for you,
the whole time,
up until the day that you said you were through!
and then you went to rehab,
that was very sad for us,
we missed you a lot,
but I didnt fuss,
I am very proud of you,
for all the acomplishments you have made,
I dont want you to leave,
but I know in my heart,
this is how you are getting paid.
God had brought a very special person into your life,
and you shouldnt be thinking twice.
I am proud that you are acually growing up,
I know that it must be very mentally tough.
I know that you love us,
and we all love you,
and I know that we will never be through.
You are my sister,
and that is a privaledge to me,
even though there may be a time,
when you want to be free.
You have always been there,
when they hard times were tough,
and you have always been there,
when the "bumps in the road" where rough.
I will always remember,
the good and not the bad,
so as you leave,
i will try not to be sad,
I will try to be happy,
that you are doing what is right,
I will try, try with all of my might.
I just want you to know, that as you walk out the door,
I wanna hug you, wanna hug you just once more,
I dont want you to go,
but I know you have to,
so just make sure that he is good to you.
As this poem wraps up,
and comes to a close,
i just want to make sure,
that you know,
I am sorry for all the things I have put you through,
and I am sorry for being so mean to you,
I am sorry for all of the horrible things I say,
and I guess this is the price I pay,
I kinda figured you would live here forever,
now I guess I know that u and casey were ment to be together,
thank you for making my life have a meaning,
and I am glad that I finally started seeing,
how good of a person you acually can be,
and that now it is time for you to go,
time for you to be free.

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:18:58 (EST)

I dont understand...
I dont understand you,as well as I need to.
One second you flirt,one second you say we are through.
Then maybe three seconds later,you apoligize to me,
Then in another three seconds,you say you want to be free.
Five six, seven seconds later,You apoligize to me,
again for saying, that you want to be free.
Then in another seven seconds,
You tell me, how much your "woman" means to you,
I really dont care, I mean..i wish you two would just be through!
Then ten seconds later, I relize who you are,
are you acually the guy, whom i felt was my shining star?
I dont understand you!
Now, i am telling you, we are finished, we are through.
Don't come crawling back to me,
cause five seconds after that, you will say you wanna be free.
So forget it it all now,I am letting you go,
as in, i am wrapping you up,
and tying you with a bow,
and sending somewhere far away from me,
so this time I am the one who needs to be free!

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:14:23 (EST)

Stupid Player
What has been up with you?
You act as if you want to be through,
as in me and you, no longer friends,
and I kinda thought we would be friends to the end.
MayBe I am stupid,
for believing all those things you said,
maybe you are acually worthless,
as worthless as a pencil without led.
Maybe I shouldnt have believed you,
all those times you said that we would never be through,
and all those thoughts and things you put in my head,
what is wrong with you now?
Cant take what I said?
well see if you can take this little man,
We are finished, through,
do you understand?

Niki Farris
Grade 8
niki_baby69@hotmail.com - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 12:12:43 (EST)

Player struck me again.
As I lie in my bed,
Picturing an image,
Of the back of your head,
AS you leave me behind.

The last time I saw you,
You were saying goodbye,
AS I wanted to die.

You took back you class ring,
And I started to cry.
Why did you leave me for here?
Why did you leave with a sigh?

I rememver our first kiss,
Sweet as could be,
Nothing but pure bliss,
But did you meen it when you kissed me?

I doubt that you did.
So here I am.
I thought I was in love,
But no, just played agian.

So here I stand.
With nothing but tears.
Mascara on my face,
And nothing but fear.

Talking to you,
About how I feel.
Hope you feel guilty,
As your face comes in contack with my heal.

Antonia Rose
Grade 8
rain222@earthlink.net - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 03:39:44 (EST)

Looking
Love seeks and owner,
But I seek a lover.
Someone who will e ther forever.
Someone to cradle my heart in a fever.

I search and search for my sure,
I think he is standing right there,
But I just can't see him with a glare,
Because all I see is pure air.

Could he be the boy next dorr?
Or the boy that works at the store?
Could he be rich with money galore?
Or right now is he standing outside my door?

I fell so senceless,
So clueless,
hopfully he is loveless.
Like me, lonley.

But he could be in love.
Like a dove.
But all I see is a glove.
A glove confining hand that represents my love.

Just like a dove? So caring.
So gentle, yet outgoing.
At flight, but at night he's really gliding.
Soaring through my heart witch is really pounding.

I feel like soaring throught the sky.
Oh so very hight.
Without a care, without a tear to cry.
And then I sigh.


As I stop my dream,
As I begin another theme,
About a lovesick girl,
And a love sick dream.
A dream of findig the perfect man,
And then she will write a poem; the starting line reads:
"Love seeks an owner, but I seek a lover..."

Antonia Rose
Grade 8
rain222@earthlink.net - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 03:35:39 (EST)

Theres logic, then theres me.
So, the grass is green,
The sky is blue,
The flowers bueitifull, And the clouds are white.

So the sun is yellow,
Light is light,
And dark is dark,
And birds fly,
And humans walk.

But have you ever seen a bird withot wings?
Or humans that fly?
Have you ever opened, and see a dark light?
Have you ever shut off the lights and then watch the world go bright?

Have you ever seen the sun rise in the north and set in the south?
Have you ever seen blue snow fall from the sky?
Have you ever seen a green moon?
Have you heard a lion sing like a loon?

If you havn't hen you've never heard me cry.
If you havn't you never looked in my eyes.
If you havn't you don't know me at all.
If you havn't then you've never cought my fall.

Antonia Rose
Grade 8
rain222@earthlink.net - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 03:29:40 (EST)

See how you hurt me.
Why can't you see?
I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Why can't you see?
That I'm an emotion freek.

Or are you blind?
All you see is skin.
I will never love again.
Now love is my sin.

I sold my soul.
It's yours no more.
If you even try to tuch my heart,
Your mind and soul will ALWAYS be apart.

I Know how that feels.
Feels like you'ld rather be dead.
But you can't be rediculus,
You can't go outta tuch with your head.

Now all I see is the time,
I don't watch over YoUr behind.
NoW all I need is a sign.
To point me away from you and your eyes that are blind.

Antonia Rose
Grade 8
rain222@earthlink.net - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 03:25:06 (EST)

Briliant Candy
My roses are blue,
My violets are red,
y candy is bitter,
Spining is my head.
My roses are white,
My violets are black,
My candy is tight,
My venium you lack.
My roses, worth cash,
My violets, like a cave,
My candy sucks ass,
My love is you fave.
My roses are dieing,
My violets, like night,
My candy says this poem is ending,
My candy is right.

Antonia Rose
Grade 8
rain222@earthlink.net - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 03:20:23 (EST)

How could I be so Blind.
In the circles.
Where I stand.
Being constintly jugded.
All these notes, written by hand.

Between friends and boys,
Clothes and hair.
To me, it all annoys,
Spin the bottle, truth or dare.

Why should I even care?
Councler says it's an emotional thing.
But whne it comes to popularity, you DON'T share.
Adults are clueless when it comes to teens.

Words like, "Duh", "whatever", "forget you".
Slang and brands.
Without money what am I suposed to do?
Famillies are rich and famillies are poor.
Without the cash, you shoved out the door.

Money is the key,
When it comes to popularity.
A look, a style, a boyfriend whose a popy galore.

"How to survive in this sosial law?
Lie,
Cheat,
It used to be raw."

"The money?
Who cares?
Have a look, that's all.
Keep up with the times,
It's not that hard at all."

But it's easy for you,
With you looks, you can't stumble or fall.
I'm not so hot,
Sexy or tall.

"Who cares?"
I do.
"Why?"
Well look at you.

Anyways, I don't have it all.
So now in a limbo world between hevan and earth,
Stuck, 'cause I got drunk, and now it's t late.
Thought popularity was the key.
Don't make my mistke,
DOn't take my fall.
Because dead is not a cool way to be at all.

Antonia Rose
Grade 8
rain222@earthlink.net - Saturday, January 27, 2001 at 03:15:44 (EST)

Quad at Five



The rising sun reflected off the crystal lake
Our breath turned to fog as we prepared the shell
With bumps on our skin we pushed away
Savoring those last few moments of nothing
Then the voice, piercing the calm, instructing us of our purpose
Smooth, easy strokes
“legs back arms catch!”
“legs back arms catch!”
Our bodies swung to and fro together
We each felt the presence and power of the other
“faster! More power!”
Our shell seemed to split the water in two
Into the rising sun we flew

Ben Schramm
Grade 10
Motive13@aol.com - Thursday, January 25, 2001 at 21:58:38 (EST)

MIRROR IMAGE
MY EYES SHUT AND THINGS APPEAR,
THINGS OF WHICH I HAVE ALWAYS FEARED.
MY GREATEST FEAR IS NOT LIKE YOURS,
MY FEAR IS ONE I CANNOT IGNORE.
I CAN'T HANDLE WHAT'S INSIDE,
IT FEELS JUST LIKE A ROLLER COASTER RIDE.
THESE TWISTS AND TURNS I MUST ENDURE
TO TAKE THIS PATH I MUST BE SURE.
SURE I CAN HANDLE WHAT'S BEHIND THAT DOOR.
NOW I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE...
I TURN THE KNOB AND JUST THEN
WHERE DO I START, WHERE DO I BEGIN.
BEHIND THAT DOOR WAS MY REFLECTION
SKIN SO SOFT CLEAR COMPLEXTION.
DARK BROWN EYES AND BLACK HAIR
IT'S HARD TO SEE;I'M BARELY THERE.
MY GREATEST FEAR IS NOT A CAT
IT'S WHAT'S IN THE MIRROR THAT I AM LOOKING AT.
MY GREATEST FEAR IS MYSELF
IT'S JUST NOT ME IT'S SOMEONE ELSE.
CERTAIN PARTS OF ME ARE MISSING
PARTS OF ME THAT I KEEP ON DISMISSING.
I DON'T LIKE TO ADMIT THESE THINGS
BECAUSE OF THE HURT AND PAIN IT BRINGS
SO LOOK AT YOURSELF AND REMEMBER THAT FACE
REMEMBER IT'S A FACE THAT CAN BE REPLACED

KESHIA PARKER
Grade 9
CRUSH9000@HOTMAIL.COM - Tuesday, January 23, 2001 at 17:32:58 (EST)

What's in a name?
James Anna Sarah Lee,
All seem like very good names to me.
Some are named Megan Jordan or Ray,
With me there's simply no name to say.

All but me were born with a name,
Others had a name when they first came.
Without a name i am unknown,
Therefore I live all my life alone.

Alone I live, Alone I play,
Alone I spend my entire day.
Without any friends,
Without companions.

My final wish is to see,
Someone who knows even a small bit about me,
Now you know my life and story,
You are the first to really Know me.

Thomas McManus
Grade 7
Goaliestar5@aol.com - Saturday, January 20, 2001 at 21:42:18 (EST)

Come With Me !
*In the darkness of the
night,
*Past the moon that shines
so bright,
*In my heart that holds the
key,
*Under the earth that hides
all of me,

*Twist the darkness in to
light,
*Drop the moon that shines so
bright,
*Unlock my heart that holds
the key,
*Come under the earth to be
with me!

Laura Bordner
Grade 9th
none - Saturday, January 20, 2001 at 20:42:00 (EST)

Neverthought

Do it for the madness
All intentions of false reality
Chaos comes from revelation
Sporadic assumptions determine life’s essence
Too bad for something,
nothing matters

Cutting out our true distaste
Fearfulness,
saturated with absolute nothing

Glorious confusion
Preponderate again
Drifting on a sea of paranoia
Talk to your vents which impose other endeavors
You are conversing with other figments of illusion

Pain is superimposed
On the plain of insecurity
The inevitable posses progress
Derived in a vat consistent with
incoherent ominous corruption
Formatted to neglectful ignorance

Low comprehension
Baffled by reality
Inevitably in the sense of progress
Jolly minds blister
Welted with salty moisture
Due to extreme subordination
Too bad for something,
There is nothing
Neverthought of anything
Cared about nothing

Douglas M. Mc Cue
Grade 11
minirollins@aol.com - Saturday, January 20, 2001 at 02:48:38 (EST)

Pain
You may never know my pain
You may only feel my heart
But you'll never know what's left
Is the pain that you brought
you tell me what you want me to hear
But that's not what I belive
I always know when your lieing
because I feel my heart drop then pop
I know you feel it too
but you never show me that
why I don't know
Because if you did
I'd bet you stop
Then maybe that's WHY
THIS PAIN WON'T STOP

Stephanie
Grade 9th
princess_stephanie101 - Thursday, January 18, 2001 at 00:41:12 (EST)

Crystal
As I sit here with you
my wonderful beautiful dog
I think about how much I love you
and I know your time is almost through
not too long from now I know
you'll be somewhere else
though your body will still be here
your soul will be gone
I don't know where dogs go
when their time is through
i'm both happy and sad for you
You've lived the life you wanted to live
you were a faithful dog
but now I see your time is through
I will always miss you
Although you were only a dog
you were the greatest dog I knew
As I hold your non-living body here in my arms
I take a deep breath and start to cry
You were loyal you were true
I don;t know where dogs go when thier time is through
the only thing I know is I will always miss you
not only were you my dog
you were a freind too.

Megan Elmblad
Grade 8
bassgal927@hotmail.com - Tuesday, January 16, 2001 at 22:51:28 (EST)

When I was younger boys flocked to me
I thought I was beautiful
Maybe my head was a little too big
But when I grew up
Dude started to point out my faults
your lips too big
your hips too wide
your nose too big
or they would plain out say
your ugly
I started to get depress
I only attracted ugly dudes that I didn't pay attention too
Like any other girl I wanted the thug
but they would just laugh at me
or
do me wrong
So I just sit here all sad and lonely

Veloria
Grade 8
JLVBL3@aol.com - Sunday, January 14, 2001 at 11:35:55 (EST)

Earth is hell
i woke up this morning without a dout in my head,
that by the end of the day i was going to be dead.
i couldn't take the presure it was driving me insain,
i knew in this world i could'nt remain.
then i thought to myself why do i have to die,
if i could hurt others for making me cry.
so i narowed it down to my worst enimy,
but it turned out that person was me.
i hate who i am and what i want to be,
so whats the purpus in life if i cant live happily?
i get accused of things that are never true,
people say i've got it easy but they they don't go through what i go through!
people think i steal i think their confused,
i have whan i was younger but i'm still being accused.
i try to act mature cuz i'm treated like i'm five,
i wonder who they would blame if i wasn't alive.
i want people to know how my life is unfair,
but i wonder if they'd listen, i wonder if they'd care.
i feel like i need to scream or maybe even hate,
people tell me to pray but i've lost all faith in faith.
if other people hate me and want me dead too,
then that is exactly what i should do.
i know there'd be a period where my family would cry,
but i know they'll be happy when i die.
as i look bake i realize how unhappy i've always been,
and how everything i've ever done was probably a sin.
i know in my head and in my hear that taking my life is rong,
but i also know that in the end they'll be happy that i'm gone.
it's not that i'm crazy or out of my mind it's only that i know,
if i'm unhappy and making others upset then i should have to go.
i wish i were ded, i wish i were ded.
are the words that repeat themselves in my head.
with no more straigth to smile and no more tears to cry,
now is probably the best time to say goodbye!

(NOT A TRUE STORY)

Carrie
Grade 8
number_one_prankster@hotmail.com - Sunday, January 14, 2001 at 02:05:25 (EST)

MY SONG

I sing a song for you to here its filled with
joy its filled with tears.The song i sing is
everything i sing about love ising about pain
i sing about you i sing about me.My life is a
song and thats exactly what its called

Tanisha
- Saturday, January 13, 2001 at 23:11:52 (EST)

Beside you

I remember when you were always there
for me and by side always never letting me
fly alone. Always there beside me i always thougth
you would be there i took what we had for granted.
But now i see what its like without you i must
confess i dont like it.just thinking of you makes
me want to cry but all i can do is wish i was

BESIDE YOU

Tanisha
- Saturday, January 13, 2001 at 22:53:50 (EST)

Were you there?
were you there when I would need you
needed you the most?
were you there when I sat and cried
felt totally alone?
were you coming to aid me at
when someone put me down?
no,you were coming with my enemy
someone who knew the town.
Did you know she was connected
with drugs and alchol?
How could you tell that I was not the one?
Did you ever stop to think of who was hurting you the most?
Did you ever stop and look around and think"what have I done"?
apparently not in my case
all you want is to have fun.
I can't believe you ditched me for som trashy tramp
I can't believe you knew about every little hurt
and turned around spat on me as if I were just dirt.

Nichole
- Friday, January 12, 2001 at 21:42:18 (EST)

Crushed con.
When I was so sweet and perfect
you said that you would know
that I would never be
be in the postion I'm in now
How could you say I love you
when you knew it was a lie
how could break your promise
and make me wanna cry

Nichole
- Friday, January 12, 2001 at 21:30:27 (EST)

Crushed
WHY DID YOU SAY YOU LOVED ME
IF IT WAS JUST A LIE
WHY DID YOU SAY I'LL NEVER LEAVE
AND THEN JUST SAY GOODBYE?
I thought you said you were different
I guess it's just a lie
You said you would never
never make me cry.
You broke my heart in pieces
and set it out to go

Nichole
- Friday, January 12, 2001 at 21:24:50 (EST)

anna skelly
bananagrl2 - Wednesday, January 10, 2001 at 01:24:40 (EST)

thrown down
love is the most precious thing of all
but life is the most confusing
sometimes you feel like you are on top of the world
other times you feel like you just got thrown down,
from your spot on top.
you can sometimes wounder what life would be like without,
the person that you love
but i learned that life is easier if you just know that you have love.
you can have a good life
and stay on top.
but you just need to lead it right
and then you won't fall off.

matt
Grade 8th
gimp921@hotmail.com - Wednesday, January 10, 2001 at 00:05:58 (EST)

thrown down
why is life so confusing
why does it always leed you one way,
but goes another.
right when you think that you are in paridise
you get thrown right back down to the slums.
life has to be one of the most confusing things of all.
never be fooled when something is going your way
never let your gard down when you have a good day
because when you least belive its gonna happen
the thing you belive in the most
will be thrown back at you, with no waring.
life can be the greatist thing somedays
but other days you wounder why you are here
what you are for
and wishing this,
fear,
pain,
suffring,
would just all go away.
in life you will always get thrown down
but you just have to learn to bite the dust,
get back up
and take it again.

matt
Grade 8
gimp921 - Tuesday, January 09, 2001 at 23:45:26 (EST)

I'll
I'll hug away your worries
and take away your pain
I'll kiss away your constant tears
that fall like winter rain
I'll love u 4 a lifetime
with a love that will never die
I'll hold u close & keep u safe
so no longer will u cry

Kim
Grade 10
lil_miss_cheeky69@hotmail.com - Sunday, January 07, 2001 at 22:15:21 (EST)

I Am Me
I’m no supermodel,
I’m no beauty queen,
I’m no goddess,
I’m no angel,
I’m no devil.

Theres alot of things I for sure am not.
But theres a few things I am proud to be.

I’m a girl,powerful and intelligent,
I’m one of Gods children,I too shall be forgiven,
I’m human,I am not perfect or faultless,
I’m a child,I will make mistakes and I won’t always listen,
I’m a big sister,I will protect and love,
I’m a daughter,I will mouth and misbehave.

But there’s one thing I am that no one else will ever be,
Unique and different from all the rest,
I am me!

Leanne
Grade 10th
Hyperchicky03@aol.com - Tuesday, January 02, 2001 at 01:07:38 (EST)

motivation
the hellos of tomorrow never were my motive.
to wake each day is a satisfaction
that the hellos of yesterday are finally gone.
and while sleeping isn't tomorrow,
yesterday, nor today,
i vow to give sleepily comfort its way.

Gabrielle Weber
lucky_star_5@Hotmail.com - Monday, January 01, 2001 at 17:56:45 (EST)